Raff, Bam, I take on board what both of you have said and of course respect what you both have to say, but let me tell you something ... I will never change ......... now, if that compromises what I am doing for the chairmanship of the federation, then the answer is breathtakingly simple, I would resign in a heartbeat ...
I'm afraid you can't pick and choose what bits you want of me guys.......... if I changed my character for every Tom, Dick and Harry (no disrespect intended guys) who said they didn't agree with or dislike what I was doing (after I have categorically stated that what i am doing is NOT anything to do with the federation) then I just couldn't live with myself.
If people attack me, either by attempting to steal off by me like jeff abbott or by undermining me like sables, then I will go for them.
And if that means I go for those people who attack me on MY OWN site, a site that you guys happen to be guests of, and I am not making anybody read any particular thread, then so be it ... those same values/virtues/vices that got me into whatever position I am supposed to be in paintball, then these will be exactly the same values/virtues/vices that will be displayed upon these boards.
In expecting/asking me to live up to your expectations is tantamount to me pretending or lying or holding back as a consequence....... I am prepared to do none of those.
The choice for me is simple guys...
And if any of the board members voiced similar concerns then they have only got to let me know and I'm gone like a rat up a drainpipe.
I will of course always be mindful of my chairmanship and not wish to compromise it but I have to be the adjudicator on where that line is drawn, and that is non-negotiable ... if I can't be true to myself guys, how the fcuk can I be truthful to you lot ..end of !