I have until now said nothing on this matter except in private conversations. It is true that I wrote those e-mails to Mr Barnett shown in his new website. I did indeed make derogatory comments about Peter Robinson and Paul Banks with regard to how I felt they were victimising him and his company. I felt they were a completely unnecessary series of attacks on him who I considered to be a breath if fresh air in the industry , indeed I also made similar comments about Steve Baldwin and anyone who in my opinion were being paranoid about TB,s influence in the industry, I just could not understand it, why was this anger all being levelled at someone who was putting a little razzmatazz as I called it into the sport and industry we all loved. I thought it was out of spite and fear of losing business market share to the "new school" and it made me frustrated to say the least. I defended TB at every opportunity causing me to be the object of some tongue in cheek ridicule on more than one occasion. However I was warned to be careful, ". He will burn you at some point Simon" was a line I heard on more than one occasion. Nevertheless I stuck to my guns, as long as he didn't cross me, I would reply , I didn't have the luxury of picking and choosing my customers. Anyway the subsequent course of events we all know about took place and I "got burnt" so to speak, as detailed in the published transcript of a telephone conversation between myself and Peter Robinson. I did feel foolish, I was warned repeatedly and chose not to listen. This only proves one thing, I am a terrible judge of character, from both directions, those who deserve respect and time I chose to ignore and ridicule, and those who do not I chose to blindly defend and support.
The costs attributed to my short sightedness I will have to bear as time goes on, I am embarrassed that the contents of my ill thought out e.mails are made public and I hope Peter, Paul and Steve will understand and forgive my shortsightedness. As for the other characters in this " Soap Opera" as it now called, their opinion of me and more importantly, my opinion of them is valueless.
Long live Paintball.
Hugs to everyone.
Simon Cole.
A post script to this, my post from yesterday, and FINAL word on the matter.
I have had quite a few calls and e-mails expressing support for me on this and I truly thank all for that. It became apparent during these calls that there was some confusion, with the question being put to me.. "why would you do this after everything that happened to you" Well the answer is explained in the timeline. I wrote the offending e-mails in the summer of 2013, a period which I will call my "This chap can do no wrong phase". As I stated yesterday, I was incensed at all the anger being directed at him and flatly refused to consider other peoples position, I was right, you lot were wrong, period. At this point I need to say that yesterday I contacted the people I so idiotically insulted, and to varying degrees that have graciously allowed that particular poo stick to go under the bridge and disappear down the river, more than I could have hoped for, and far more than I deserve.
This was all before the now well documented issue with non payment of invoices etc, etc, and before I started to grasp the reality of the situation.
The challenge we have here is that a lot of these issues are based on opinions, we all make them, the ability to do this is hard wired into our genetic make up. Historically the ability was vital to our survival, we would look at a situation, weigh up the pros and cons, evaluate the threat potential and act accordingly. Clearly this skill set has eluded me somewhat, I can see it now, I'm outside the cave, I say to my parents who are making arrowheads or something and say, hey look at that cute giant Sabre Toothed cat, I think I,ll say hello, Hi kitty, how are you?, hey wait a minute!,..what the fu..!!!!!..... the outcome is predictable by all it seems but me.
Anyway, I can present to you cliches, metaphors and funny stories all day long in an attempt to validate my point and position. the fact remains that I screwed up, made a catastrophically bad judgement call and insulted people who deserve better, my fault, no one else s, consequences to suffer. that's only fair.
Historically and with regard to this matter, Peter Robinson was proved right, I was the one who got it wrong, Its "just a matter of time" he said, 100% right, sorry bud, I should have listened.
Its this Opinion thing, it can be so destructive if expressed without considering the consequences.
After reading through all the bumph on this over the last day or two, it appears that legal action may be on its way involving the two main protagonists in the soap opera, I hope not, this can only be damaging to paintball, the main victim in all this. the one saving grace should legal proceedings actually take place is that opinions will count for nothing, only facts count. Perhaps all should consider this before moving in that direction.
Any way on a lighter note, I am going to the Paintball Awards dinner tonight, I hope to see many of you there. this is an event I have always enjoyed, my whole family are going, Ethan my son has been nominated for two awards,someone I am immensely proud of and thankfully who has not been tainted by the sordid and unnecessary politics of paintball. His sister, a fine athlete in her own right who will be there to support her brother, even though at home you would think she hates him!, and my wonderful wife who tolerates my love for paintball with a smile and frankly thinks we are all nuts! "running around the woods and arenas shooting paint at each other" how silly!
of course , this is just her opinion.
My best wishes to all.
Simon Cole.